Updates for February

Hey all! It’s been a while since I posted a blog, so I just wanted to let you know why.

I have been going through a lot of things personally, mainly working to innerstand my subconscious habits and though patterns. My life in no shape or form is terrible, but I have had a rough beginning, and for a long time I’ve ignored the effects that my upbringing could have on my presents actions.

Lately I’ve been asking myself a lot of questions: why do I do x when I want to do y?

Why do I repel people away? Why do I always make excuses as to why I cannot find love, a girlfriend, someone to enjoy my youth and vigor with?

How come I always feel unimportant, yet everyone who knows me describes how invaluable a friend I am? Why do I beat myself up for no reason? Why am I so bipolar at times?

These questions and more have been coming to the forefront of my mind since last fall. I’m just so tired of not living the life I know I am capable of living. Even though I am teaching astrology and have begun writing for a living, I know the potential I have and what I want to do with it.

But for some reason, which I’m assuming must be related to my subconsciousness or history, I keep my own self down, impotent, and isolated. How can my ambition and will be so different, so diametrically opposed to my feelings?

That’s why I’m getting psychotherapy, hypnotherapy, and all that juicy shit in between. Astrology is fantastic at alerting me to my personal wounds, but eventually I’m going to need a professional to patch things up.

The point of this post I guess is to say: Sorry for a lack of content. Things have been hairy. I’m working to heal my painful childhood to make myself better.

You can definitely expect more articles to come in March 2020.

Thanks for reading.

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